Here is the thing…
And not just in the money sense. No I’m broke in some many ways that I’ve lost track of them all.
But in regards to the making of my Halloween costume the money one plays a huge role.
My husband still has no job. I make just enough money to cover our bills an really nothing else. That means that all the food we consume goes on our credit cards. Thus reinforcing the horrible cycle of only being able to afford the bills.
I’m frustrated. Sad. Lonely. Disappointed.
I don’t know what to do. And so I do nothing. I give up my dreams. Say goodbye to them and never look back, except in bitter anger.
So what is a girl to do?
My solution is to work on a puzzle, but even this is not working. I’ve gotten this far and I put maybe a couple of pieces in a day now. It is not holding my interest. This is not what I want to be doing with my spare moments in time. So I pick up the book my friend Stephanie gave me. I read it for a short while and this too does not hold my interest.
I’m lost. I feel like I’m drowning in my own ineptness.